Tears. Feelings.

Drama. I always love drama. Yes, lots of tragedies, crying and sad stuffs. And I just don't know why. I don't want to be emotional or a loner or something like that, but I just don't know why I like these kind of things. I watch drama movies, read drama fanfics and listen to sad love songs. I was actually enjoying doing these stuffs but you see, drama in real life is not really that fun. Absolutely not. 

When I was younger, I thought I have a perfect life. Perfect friends, perfect education and was blessed with a happy family. It was like that until I reached my 4th grade in elementary. I recognize some changes, changes that are really not that normal, but not too abnormal though. I'm sorry if that's too complicated. Well, as what I'm saying...I began to see 'not-so-good' changes in my family, life and friends. But it wasn't really a bother. Last school year, I started feeling ostracized by some of my classmates. But I really don't care since I have my own group of friends, who understand me and are concern with me. And I'm very thankful with that.

This school year, I can say that I'm proud of myself. I can say that I've been through a lot. Why? Last month, I experienced real drama. November 19. The problem started, and the dam of tears that I've been preventing from breaking for almost 2 years now, broke. The next day, another problem came up (I cannot really say what the problems are, because YES. I still have my private life that I only keep to myself). The next day, November 21. It was Monday, and I wanted to start my week right but it seems like my wish won't be granted. That morning my parents fought, and my dad threw tantrums. It all happened, infront of me. Well, I'm not really troubled with that because things like this always happened, and I've grown accustomed to such things. I'm mad because through all these years, they still don't recognize this. They fight because of money, they fight because of family problems, they fight because of my future. COME ON?! It's MY future, MY life, MY decision. I know they care for me, but fighting over these kind of things is already unreasonable. I would love to accept their help and guide to know my interest in life, but deciding and controlling my life is out of the topic already. I can't understand why should they fight about that too. Looking back about that now, I can't imagine how pathetic I must have looked that time. But well, let's all live well okay :) Though many suffered during that period of our lives, I can say that experiencing real drama makes us stronger in life.
Eventhough the problem is not completely solved but for the meantime let's enjoy our lives. ^.^ I'm going to make the best out of it, and  I will always heed the values and the lessons learned. I really don't know how to describe what exactly happened in those 5 days.

Sometimes, all I need is just a hug from someone who really cares for me. Actually, I have this one wish and I'm kinda hopeless about it. I just want my parents to hug me, even just for once, hug me tightly and shower me with their warmth; I want them to kiss my cheeks at the same time and have a bonding in a peaceful place, far away from this complicated city. It's not wrong to dream, it's free. Just be prepared and brace yourself if ever you may fall. I really appreciated some of my friends when they hugged me and encouraged me that everything will soon be okay, that I can do this, I will surely do this and overcome this. And most of all I like to thank God for guiding me this whole year, for trusting me that I can handle this problem, and for giving me His love.

In the end, I can't say that it is a 'Problem Solved' but I'm certain that I found true friends, I learned the lessons in life and I became more faithful to God. Gosh, I'm becoming more sensitive and emotional these days...haha!

Life's bittersweet. Let's deal with it. Live. Laugh. Love.
Belated Merry Christmas everyone! God bless! ♥


Labyrinth_101
12.27.11

Periodical Exams =="

It's already 12:38 am here in my place. I just finished reviewing 3 of my subjects (Biology, TLE and Filipino) for the exams next week. It's a good thing that we have no classes from Wednesday to Friday...you know why? BECAUSE, there are so many things to study!!! ;A; Just history alone is KILLING ME! Ya know, history of India, China, Japan and Korea...empires and dynasties. O.o TT.TT Oh, history...please be kind to us.

So...I know this is my first post on the month of October. I'm sorry, I am so damn busy >.< I am really lucky to even have this time to visit my blog...How I miss posting here! :)))) I have so many things to post, but it's really late already. I don't know if I need to be on hiatus from now on, but I hope not.

Haha! And oh, to those who will also take their tests, Goodluck and God bless!!!

-Labyrinth_101
10.20.11

(9^-^)9 Fighting!!!

Everyone needs support

When I look for support from them, 'from people whom I trust the most' (well..maybe)...I found none. And surprisingly, others who are not even related to me were the ones who cheer for me and tells me to continue what I love to do. They were the ones encouraging me and appreciating the things that I've done. Accepting me just the way I am.

What's wrong with being like this? I mean, this is me...this is who I am. I'm not like those pretty girls walking around the campus with all their wonderful curls and make-up. I'm not those girls who flirt and gossip and laugh like squeaking mice. I am me. Everyone's special and unique in their own way. We also have the right to love and to be loved back. Dreaming about something is not prohibited for people like me.

I love singing, dancing, drawing, composing songs...quotes and stories. I am in love with animé and Kpop. What's so wrong with that. All I need is support from my parents and friends. All I want is to be appreciated and not to be ignored. I swear, I am afraid of rejection.

I miss my classmates last year. They were really different from all my friends this school year. I feel like, I'm just being used.

As they say: "Don't talk to me because you're bored. I'm not here to entertain you. And don't come to me only when you need a favor. I don't like being used.  Just get the fuck away cause I'm not going to be your last resort. I want someone to talk to me because they sincerely want to. Those kind of people are worth my time."

And it hurts thinking that they want to be your friend just because they need your help. I am a cheerful person at school. And what I mean is...VERY cheerful. I talk to each and every single person in the classroom. And many of my classmates think that I have many friends. Well...I do have many friends. But I only have a few who are really true and will always be there no matter what.

So guys, friends are everywhere...but friends who are true are rare.




-Labyrinth_101
09.26.11

PS: >< I just realized that I haven't posted here on the day of my birthday :'(
God bless everyone~!

Still busy TT^TT Why?!

WAAAAAAAAAH!!!

This is so frustrating! I haven't posted here for 5 days!!! WHAT THE HECK?!

huhuhuhu :((( super busy in school. Too much trainings, classes, contests and stuffs >< but..,.woooooooooh!!! All my hard work paid off :D hehehehe!!! I lalalala~LOVE U GUYS!!

That's all for now, hehehe ^^ I'm still busy >< lalala~ I hope I can write one more post here later ... If I still can :) hehe!


-Labyrinth_101
09.12.11


PS: Happy Birthday to my classmate, Daniela~! God bless~! Love u :*

[ONESHOT] Heart's Confession

“This is gonna take forever” a blonde haired girl with a pair of cherry eyes sighed. She was roving up the hill for hours. This travel is endless; she is still kilometers away from the meeting place. The blonde made her way through the bushes and have walked through many fields of flowers already. It was some kind of a venture a normal 13-year-old girl wouldn't waste her time doing. She can’t believe she’d been walking for so long from morning till this time of the day.  She often opted to stay home and spend all of her time being stuck with her favorite books, but she resisted the urge of going back and rest, for all she know was she need to do a promise with someone very important.

It was near evening, she wandered her eyes across the sky as deep darkness engulfed it slowly. She wasn’t aware anymore of how much time was left before midnight come.

Then, a sudden melancholic sound echoed, it seems like it’s coming from a nearby tree just centimetres beyond the bushes where she was standing at. The moment she hear it, a smile lit up her face.

“There you are” the girl called out, walking over to the brunette who was creating the tune.  She halted from her steps just in front of the boy and gave him a sweet grin.

“You’re late Jane. I’ve been waiting for hours.” This brunette returned the girl’s grin with a smirk causing the delighted expression of the girl to fade away and become an annoying look reflecting her disgust at the boy.

“And I’ve been walking for hours. I’m exhausted and all you’re gonna say is ‘you’re late’?! Oh please Brian…you’re---”she began

“I am what???” Brian asked, probably like teasing. “Great? Handsome? Amazing?” he continued saying random words and continued to play with the girl’s patience. “Awesome? Talented? Smart?---”

“YOU ARE AN IDIOT!!!”

“Ooooh really???” the boy said, sprightly smiling to his so-called friend. But it wasn’t cute looking for Jane, it was a devious smile for her.  

“I hate you!” she shouted

“You are lying~” Brian began taunting again, mimicking the girly tone of Jane.

“Am not” the blonde denied, crossing her arms over her chest.

“Am too”

“Am not”

“Am too”

“Ugh! Just shut up! And why’d you told me to go here anyway?” Jane frowned at the brunette who is still sneering at her though she’s mad. They were giving off lethal stares at each other for how many seconds, till this guy abruptly burst into laughter, and made the girl more confused.

“What?”

“You’re cuter that way!” the boy continued to laugh, while rolling down the grass and clutching his stomach at extreme hilarity.  Jane didn’t know if that was a joke or what---but one thing’s sure…she was embarrassed with it.

“I’m not. And…stop laughing.” She turned her face away from the boy’s stare, completely unaware that she’s blushing upon hearing the words from this special guy. This brunette keeps catching her eyes then he spoke again.

“You’re blushing, aren’t you?” he teased, but the girl remained silent. “See? I told you, you’re lying a while ago. You don’t hate me…instead…you like me huh” he continued, still catching her gaze. After that silly mockery…at last! She found her courage to talk again.

“Who would like someone like you dweeb.” She stated, but now in a sweet shy girly voice.

“There goes your stubborn side, Jane.” The boy stopped laughing and sat on the grass properly while dusting off the grasses on his shirt.

“I am not stubborn.” She denied once more.

“You suuuuuure???~~” the honey paired-eye boy asked the girl back, he was expecting for an obstinate answer from her, but he got something unforeseen.

“FINE! FINE! I like you!...and…so? Got any problem with that.” It was also considered as a stubborn response from the blonde, but it took every ounce of her courage just to state what’s really in her heart.  

The young lady thought that the boy would now be distant than anyone else she knew, upon knowing that his pal have a crush on him.

“Let’s go home” the boy said, having a blank expression.

“I can’t go home.” The girl answered back. “It took me hours to walk here. And I have a cramp.”

The boy pulled the girl’s arm and slowly places it around his shoulders, then unexpectedly, this brunette carried the young lady at his back.

“What---” Jane began

“Ssssh” Brian smiled gently at the hurt girl. It was probably the sweetest smile the girl ever saw from her friend.

“I thought you’ll be disappointed or…or…or something like that. And yet…you’re still helping me like this. Why--”

“It’s because…” Brian started

“Because what?” Jane asked, scared of what might be the next word he’s going to say.

“It’s because…. I like you too.”

~THE END~

-Labyrinth_101

09.06.11

"Spend your life with those who make you happy, not with who you have to impress."

I don't know what happened a while a go...I was feeling alone again and I feel like even though there is too many people around me, no one notices me or even bothers to talk to me. I hate being like this. I can't stop myself from thinking that I'm just a worthless company. They'll just talk to me whenever they have a favor or something. What the?! I'm not their book...not their encyclopedia or anything like that. I'm their classmate who also needed someone to listen to me when I have to say something. I also need a friend who is a good listener and adviser. That's unfair. Why does it always have to be them?  TT^TT

*sighs* But this made me realize that my guy friends are the ones who are listening to me all the time, and reacts to my jokes and other funny stuffs that I tell them. I'm not telling this because I'm a flirt or a slut or someone who's so obsessed to have a boyfriend. I'm really just in need of someone who'll lend their ears and will have time to talk to me sincerely. I'm not your last resort. I mean...go away if you just need me because you like this, you like that. It does hurt...thinking that you're just their friend because of the things you provide them.

Well...at least I found someone who would be a good listener, friend, classmate and a brother to me. :)
Thank you Lord! :D God bless~^^!!!

-Labyrinth_101
09.06.11

"The two hardest things to say in life are hello for the first time and goodbye for the last."

Oh my gosh!!! Words can't express how much I miss my classmates last year. They're are really different from my classmates today. And I mean it. REALLY DIFFERENT.


The unity is there. The happiness between the students is there. The interaction...everything! If I need someone to listen and laugh at my 'not-so-funny' jokes, I can find one or two or maybe three of them who'll be laughing and teasing me (of course in a good and HILARIOUS way). There will always be one or two person who'll comfort me when I'm down.

Waaaa! Can't stop myself from missing them!
Oh! I posted again~^^
I think this will be my last post for tonight. :D
Good night~! God bless^^!!!

-Labyrinth_101
09.05.11

"Rejection"

Rejection...it's original meaning is "to throw" or "to throw back." 

At first I never really knew that I was afraid of being rejected by the people around me. I thought I was used to it already, I thought it's already normal and that it didn't really have an impact in my life. But as time goes on, I realized that I'm always worried...worried about the reactions of other people, worried if they would accept me or not.

I decided to make a blogger account, because I want to just write all the things that I'm feeling right now. It's really hard if there's no one there to listen to you and understand you when you're depressed, so I think maybe making another blog would help. This is my 5th blog so far,...crazy right? Blogs are my life. Well, music too. ♪♫~! ^^

Whew~
So I think, that's all I can post right now. If I still have time, I'm gonna post later too.

-Labyrinth_101
09.05.11